I always wonder ... what is more agonising than the agony of missing the person you love, more painful than the pain of losing her and more saddening than the sadness of not seeing her?
Does such a feeling exist? Well, I believe it does now that I think of it...
Loving her.
They say love is for the blind. But they also say, a person can be blinded by hate. From this, I have come to think that love and hate are both for the blind and are both different yet similar emotions. Without love, there would not be hate and without hate there would not be love. Its a Yin Yang thing.
Well, I still love her. Still love her very much. And that is the most agonising thing of all, yet, a feeling which I cannot let go. I click on her facebook knowing I will be agonised by the agony of missing her. I call on her cell knowing I will be pained by the fact that I lost her. I think about her every night before I sleep knowing that I will be saddened by the fact that I did not see her for the day. But yet, I still love her :). Funny isn't it. I used to give up on love and thought that a person would be better off without it. Now that I have fallen in love again... I don't want to give up on it. Stubborn. Naive. Gullible.
Is it really so hard for a person to hold to the person he loves? "Just forget about her", reason said. "Forget and you may regret, Hold on and there is hope", heart chipped. Both agreed "You are fool you know that. A fool for love that is." Yes. I am a fool. :)
*PS: Exams - 5 down, 5 to go.
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